reading for the blind.

and nonexistent. 

the year is almost over. i think we can be thankful for that. i wonder if this will be considered a "good" year in life's book. if it is, i'm a little disinterested in what 2013 will hold.
considering where i stand right now, on this 11 december 2012, it can only go down from here.
i have a roommate. she was there when all this shit went down. she met brandon. she met michael. she's how i came to run into tom again. still deciding if that last one is a blessing or a curse. i never know. 
i never heard back from brandon. i can only hope that wherever he is, he found what he was looking for, whatever that was.
michael and kira are living happily ever after. the chain of events that HAD to take place for all of this to culminate are staggering. it's just recently that it's stopped taking my breath away.
our divorce was finalized on 3 december 2012. a good friend, evisa, got me a cake. it said "free at last, free at last". it was fucking delicious.
i still do not know where i will be in a year. 
but i've stopped knowing anything.
i definitely stopped caring.
and i'm okay with that.

tomorrow i'm taking my cat to the vets because she gained a lot of weight. i hope it's just that she's a glutton that eats all the food and not that she has some kind of cancer. i can deal with a fat ass.

it's been such a long year.
and such a long life. 
thank god for my little orange bottle.