for the past like six weeks my life has revolved around writing essays, drafts, scholarly journals and apa/mla formatting. having worked in "the real world" for the past six years and mainly dealt with military intelligence and writing stupid memos for the government i find most of this writing to be... gaybies.
the thing is, i KNOW this is just in the here and now. nobody cares about it aside from professors and annoying people who criticize grammar on public forums (see: any yahoo news article). it doesnt make this whole process any less incredibly-fucking-stupid, annoying, uuugghh.
on the flip side my writing's self esteem has become incredibly bloated cus i get a lot of compliments in the "passion behind my writing". the problem with that is i'm really, really, REALLY apathetic when it comes to shit. i mean, there are very few things i give a shit about enough to research and then write three pages about it. additionally, i also have this horrible ability to argue any and every side. so let's say i start talking about legalizing pot- (this actually happened in an english essay) halfway through, i inadvertently switch sides and i end up opposing the opposite view and then i'm all mind fucked all over the place. whatever. the point is, i probably have arthritis now.
right now im supposed to be writing an essay for psychology. its no big deal, just pick a scholarly journal and a topic dealing with psychology and point out a few things, etc. it was due three weeks ago. i stupidly went up to my professor and asked her how bad not turning in the essay would affect my grade and she coerced me into turning it in late. that was about a week ago. after a long weekend i decided to sit down and at least start writing this thing. as you can see, i've become distracted. the cool thing about procrastinating is that i get a lot of other shit that i've been putting off, done. so, i dont want to do laundry but i definitely dont want to write this essay. the lesser of the two evils is washing a load of laundry. win, win.
i told myself that if i dont finish this essay tonight, i will have to take up rigorous exercise. because if i dont pass this semester or get a degree, i will need to have a good toned body to fall back on cus nobody can love a retarded failure that cant write an essay thats already three weeks late.
fml.
