yeah im working for the weekend baby.

sittin' in the morning sun, i'll be sittin' when the evening comes...



today i feel so fucking sad. i woke up alone i went to sleep alone. i made my egg white scramble alone. i did my makeup alone. last night i showered alone and when i walked out to go to work this morning, i said nothing to anybody because the apartment was empty because yes i was still alone. ive heard lines along the lines of maybe you guys are better than you thought several times in the past 24 hours. yeah, maybe. it's kind of like when bill clinton fucked monica. he fucked up a lot but we were still like, well we got him and he's really not that bad. i mean who DOESNT fuck their interns? that's kind of what it is like. 


my usual go to music when i am being gay is the beatles. i love the beatles so much. unfortunately i think grooveshark isnt legally allowed to host authentic beatles music so i have a bunch of shitty covers. my other go tos are otis redding, soul asylym, blind melon pearl jam, skynyrd blahsyblahsyblah. i love music. music calms me down, lets me not think and you just listen. i think i have my dad to thank for a lot of my musical selection, as psycho as he may be he likes some great tunes. 


when i pulled up to work today there was not a lot of cars and i thought maybe work was called off and the doors would be locked and id sit in my car maybe smoke a couple cigarettes for half an hour and maybe no one would show up and i could go home and lay in my floor. but the doors were unlocked and people were inside. i guess things are not like in the army when formations are cancelled cus its a little cold. 


i have an entire weekend to myself what the fuck will i do? maybe get insanely drunk and die on my floor oh wait no we dont want to do that right? HOLY SHIT GUYS NO I AM NOT SAD AND DEPRESSED SUICIDAL I AM JUST FUCKING GOD. eh who wants to come to arizona and try every drug and get wicked drunk with me? COUNT ME IN FOR THAT FUN FEST.


oh yeah mason wouldnt shut up earlier i think he likes talking to me oops.
oh and yesterday i met kevin tillman, pat tillmans brother. i guess he works with UAVs now like to make sure that shit doesnt happen again. either way he is fucking hot.

watching the ships roll in and then i watch them roll away again, yeah