saaaay, bye bye.

this dumb motherfucker. YOU STUPID ASS FUCKING DUMB MOTHERFUCKER.
why i fucking wasted my goddamned youth on some stupid fucking dumb motherfucker, someone who would NEVER get me ahead someone who would only drag me down someone who was too fucking old to give a shit but so young and immature in the brain. someone with NO aspirations, someone who will always live paycheck to paycheck because thats all he's ever known. someone who has an 18 year old debt that lives and breathes yet he never sees because thats what IRRESPONSIBLE people do. they make really stupid decisions before they're even legally able to purchase cigarettes and then they bitch about never having money. 
no i will probably never own a house in this today. no i will probably always have to pay because you have to balance your money. no i will never get to go to sleep in peace without EVERY SINGLE FUCKED UP MEMORY REPLAYING IN MY MIND. no i will never be able to go take a shit because i already know what you're doing as soon as i step out of the goddamned room. no i wont trust you when you're somewhere thats suppose to be safe like work because remember that profile you set up? WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU SET IT UP!? NO. even if you are in class i cannot fucking believe you! because who the fuck did you stay with that night? why the fuck didnt you answer? because you were sleeping? yeah, because you're a heavy sleeper OH WAIT NO THAT IS A FUCKING LIE TOO.


so what are you hiding now, incubus? do you plan out the stupid lies that even a fifteen year old version of me wouldnt buy while you're doing the hurtful shit you do? ill let you in on a fucking secret- it doesnt hurt anymore. what you do everyday is add more distance and less lust and more distrust and one day youll see that i wasnt fucking joking. 
you had your chance and you ruined it. you keep ruining it. maybe youll regret it one day. but probably not. its hard to regret something when you dont give a flying shit.