if i wanted a downer, id pop some fucking codeine.

i decided i cant stand overly negative people. i never thought i would find people more negative in me in some kind of aspect but holy shit i was wrong. or maybe its that i dont like people who dont bother doing something just because they will have to go back and make heavy changes to what they work on. maybe thats something i picked up in the army that unless im doing SOMETHING i feel like a shit bag. i havent really done much since i started working here kind of just waiting until this week when we could start fucking with the new system (of course i had over expectations) so i thought hey now i can do some real work. 
except the two downers i work near were like why are you even working you're just going to end up doing it over again. 
well no shit sherlock. but thats why i get paid. the fuck else am i suppose to do? spend all day on a smoke break, come inside and bitch about it not working, go on a smoke break, come back in and bitch? that seems a little depressing. 


so then i was like ah fuck it might as well work on now and then whoever ends up taking over my workload wont be as fucked. but no downer #2 was like WELL DONT COUNT YOUR CHICKENS.
well either way if i get this other job or not, IM OUT. your black cloud of depression is gay. the hours of websurfing and getting paid for it isnt really worth it when all i have to listen to is people bitching about shit and people all day. 
thats what blogs are for.


anyways then we got on topic about school and college cus i mentioned that regardless of the outcome, im going to start taking college classes. well, then there was something to bitch about that. like, might as well not take your core classes unless you know what you're going to major in. and if i move to california, the tuition is too high and theres too much competition. what kind of low ass self esteem do these people have? are they so jaded that they dont even want to bother living? 
WELL IM JUST GOING TO DIE ONE DAY ANYWAYS I MIGHT AS WELL LIE IN A HOLE AND WAIT FOR EROSION TO BURY ME ALIVE.


if youth is wasted on the young than life is wasted on the old.


there is no reason to ever fucking start looking for new shit to stimulate you. and if you stop, then you might as well lie in a hole. SIGN ME UP FOR THAT ZOMBIE PARTY!
at the end of my life, i dont care if i live in the projects in sierra vista. 
as long as i love what i'm doing and love who is in my life
i consider that a success.


things that i have heard complaints over:
1. 'if i want to work from home i have to ask permission unlike OTHER PEOPLE'
2. how many emails have you sent with a bug report? 
3. no point in doing all that work now if everything is going to change
4. why dont i have an office with a door that i can close
5. i dont get paid enough to do this shit
6. how can they expect us to finish our part of the project if we dont enough time (ref: #3)
7. i have to stay later if i want to take an hour lunch
8. the next two weeks are going to be hell
9. i dont know how this is being used in combat so i dont know what to do
10. the b.b.boss is an idiot.
11. the b.b.boss didnt approve me overtime three weeks ago and thats why i couldnt complete my job properly
12. why do i need to request overtime a week in advance if i dont know i will need overtime next week
13. where the fuck are the maps? WHERE THE FUCK ARE THE MAPS?!
14. it's broken.
15. subject matter expert, my ass.
16. the new logo is fucking gay (even though it is not our logo)
17. why do i have to build a powerpoint if nobody is going to look at it
18. my truck sucks.
19. no point in writing this if no one is ever going to read it
20. the b.b.boss picks on our army liaison so thats why he hates us
21. i cant trust anyone here
22. nobody talks to us back here so this is FUBAR
23. why should i have to do someone elses work


anyways. i have to give a class tomorrow and hopefully everybody wont be so jaded and dead and they will have a question i can answer instead of bitch.