theres a whole world off this island. all it takes is one long swim. tell my mother i love her.

you know how sometimes youre having a crap filled fest of a day and youre like man what happened to the days when i was all grand and shit and then you think about and youre like damn i was probably like twelve and i didnt have all this shit to worry about but then something small and insignificant happens and youre like this is great! one of those things for me is driving. i fucking love driving but i hate laws so it is sometimes bittersweet. plus my honda never fully recovered from my abandonment it is a tragedy. i adore speeding down a smooth road and hearing oncoming traffic whiz by that is a great thing for me i would hate to be deaf and never have heard that i also greatly enjoy that natural high from flawlessly weaving in and out of traffic. i love when a good song comes on the ipod and it has amazing bass and that shit just pounds your entire chest that is another perk of being able to hear and feel it is also the reason why i have come to like e40.

more things i live for are remembering a word that i usually would not remember. half of my day consists of trying to make my brain remember facts and words and dates and shit and it never sticks probably i have some degenerating mental issue that prevents my brain from recalling shit i drill in there. also when i am very thirsty and you finally get a bottle of perfect temperature water and it feels great that is awesome or when i buy something out of impulse and it turns out to be practical later 

oh yeah and watching videos of soldiers downrange dancing to that peanut butter jelly time song also comprise a great portion of my happiness 

its the little things, world.

then theres the things that annoy the piss out of me and make me want to throw whatever is next to me and cut my wrists and write out expletives on the wall with my blood like when people write words with the ca$h sign replacing the 's', people with close beady eyes, not being able to find something, water running down my arm when i wash my face and not remembering a word and i spend half an hour going through my head library 

oh and not finding a job that i want that is getting super annoying its not that there is no jobs but honestly i know what i want and i am not settling so all these dumb websites that keep making me register so i can look through their job searches can suck it. i hate them.