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i once had a friend .
i once had a friend who slept with gnomes in a red room. i once had a friend who would try on novelty sunglasses with me. i once had a friend who would sit on the third floor of the palace and kiss my cheek when no one was looking. i once had a friend who would pick honeysuckles with me. i once had a friend who apologized in an art class and died two years later. i once had a friend who wrote an essay about who they admire about me. i once had a friend who tried to steal the pants i was wearing. i once had a friend who would lay in driveways with me. i once had a friend who tried to kill me in the backseat of a car. i once had a friend who took me to a bonfire and i drank an entire bottle of vodka and lime soda. i once had a friend who rescued me and slept in a park while i regained consciousness. i once had a friend who noticed i stuffed my bra. i once had a friend i took excessive cough medicine with. i once had a friend who fell in love with me. i once had a friend who would draw on my pant legs. i once had a friend who used me for sex. i once had a friend who rang in the new years with me parked at a redbox dvd stand. i once had a friend who drove three hundred miles to see me. i once had a friend who threw me in the trunk of a car and also tried to run me over. i once had a friend ride a train for nine hundred miles to see me. i once had a friend who looked in my medicine cabinet. i once had a friend sit on a rooftop with me. i once had a friend kick me down some stairs. i once had a friend who got me lost in las vegas. i once had a friend try to drown me. i once had a friend give me a rorschach test. i once had a friend who fucked me in a room with seven other people in it. i once had a friend who gave me a green hat. i once had a friend who loved me so much but i did not like them. i once had a friend who sat in a cemetery with me. i once had a friend who painted a sheet on a wall with me. i once had a friend who tried to rape me. i once had a friend who bought me a dog. i once had a friend push me into a lake. i once had a friend get my name tattooed on their leg. i once had a friend i fought for. i once had a friend who forgot me.
i once had a friend.

in a perfect world i am stuck in a place where shit looks like its melting and there are clocks everywhere!

today i woke up and had some breakfast and then i dont know what else i did and then we went riding bikes and i tried to take pictures with my phone but the phone is a touch phone so that was relatively fucking difficult then we came home and i was tired but it was hot so then i went swimming and i smoked cigarettes in the hot spa and read kurt vonnegut slaughterhouse five which i really like how he writes thank you jason for recommending him several times and then i came inside and wrote a poem and had leftovers for dinner and then switched the laundry to the dryer and some friends from a few drunken nights ago came and talked to me and then i had a slight pang of sadness for my individual self because i could be having fun but instead im stuck in an apartment watching the same stupid shows over and over and then i stole michaels phone for a couple seconds but then he started looking flustered and i realized he was hiding something duh the idiot was freaking out i would find his porn stash. i already knew he has some in there and ever other little electronic thing he gets hard ons for but it is different when you find it too fucking bad im not an idiot right?
it doesnt even matter really anyways because i know what is in store for me and i know that im not going to waste my life wondering what it is to be free and not worry about someone cheating on you or even worse not fucking you because they prefer watching porn on a motorola droid

black hole of truth! oh no! its sucking up a liar!

also, my internet that i steal because im a derelict keeps going in and out and it is becoming annoying i wish whoever im stealing internet from would fix it! none of this matters anyways because tomorrow im getting so fucking faded and maybe ill run into a tree and catch amnesia man i wish.