in a few weeks my niece is going to be leaving and thats when im going to have to make that jump i think. its ridiculous just how shitty this situation is, regardless of how depressed/identity-less i am, or if i'm back to normal and content in life.
its really annoying when i think about how fucking alone i am when it should be different. who the fuck gets married to just become isolated? or celibate? or have a nazi roommate?
everyday its something new lately. which wouldnt be an issue if it were something pertaining to something of a unity. but nope. country music- the only genre i cannot fucking stand. watching the news- even though ive been literally YELLED at for talking about the news. (yeah? what kind of fucking psycho yells at someone for wanting to discuss the goddamned current events? A FUCKING PSYCHOPATH)
it's basically like he is growing and i'm staying behind. which would be fine, if he wasnt a giant pussy and would let me know what the fuck is going on. but no, instead i'm checking the classified looking if anybody needs a roommate and trying to find a storage unit for all my shit that wont be going immediately with me wherever i end up.
i might not know much in this huge ass world. but i know i am never making this idiotic mistake again.
I feel the same way its like no matter how hard I try to work it I get pushed to the side because of someone's anxiety n then I'm told I alienate myself from them, but I'm tired of trying when someone else only worries about themselves I need to find myself again.
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