what ive got.

ive got nobody.
everything that i once held dear and would protect with my fucking blood, and the people who stayed close to my heart were quick to forget. anybody can smile and have some drinks and dance a night away. who would you take a bullet for? truly collapse and breathe your last breath to protect. who would drive a couple state lines to see you? who would tell you that coughing up blood is not right? who would save your life? who would cry for days and weeks and months after your passing? anybody can lie and anyone can swear youll be there for each other until the end of time.
anyways.
the point is i got nobody. there is a good chance you got nobody, too. i think probably thats why some people have children. they know that the kid will always be there for them and its something to throw themselves into whole-heartedly. what i got is my book of life and a few characters that are in a few chapters. characters of no loyalty. blood and water. all the same. no loyalty. "theres always tomorrow"-mentality. one day for one of us tomorrow wont show up to her appointment and one of us with have to bear that weight on our shoulder.