adopted. by assholes.

yesterday i formed a bond with an amazing and gorgeous dog by the unholy name of buster. buster, the refined boxer mix. with freckles behind his ears brown eyes that look into your face and seem to understand everything and yet absolutely nothing because he's only a dog and i'm only a human. giant paws that stand their ground and a small body with a soft coat attached to a giant head with a mouth that always looks like he's smiling. the first time i went to the shelter he was the one that made me cry. he was the last dog i looked at before i felt overpowered by an insane sadness cus he just screamed 'someone look at me. someone take me. i'm not a fucking animal that needs to be caged' so i cried. the second time i went to the shelter we played with him. that was yesterday. and i fell in love with him and he became used to us. i went to the store picked up some animal food to donate and i picked out a little tug of war rope just for him. 
mike wanted to go climb some stupid canyon this morning and in the afternoon we'd play with buster. we got to the shelter. and i made a little joke about how buster didnt love mike and he'd gone home with some one else. we signed in and the old lady told us someone had just left twenty minutes ago and they had adopted him. brought his asshole family and his OTHER DOG and they all got along wonderfully. because buster is the kind of dog that gets along wonderfully with everyone. because he's fucking perfect.
so i went out to see buster. he came over to me all playful unlike the last two times, when he had reservations. i started crying and he started pawing at my hands repeatedly. he kept putting his giant paws on me and licking and wagging his beautiful little tail. and i cried and cried and cried some more.
because no matter what that asshole thinks, there's no way he's ever going to love buster as much as i would have.
we went to the car and sat in silence and then i decided to leave my business card behind and an offer of a hundred dollars. 


god i am so fucking pissed.