mason offered to give my resume to his wife who works for a company that instructs soldiers on dcgs. the job would start off possibly making over 30k more than i am making right now. he is pretty confident i could score the job.
mike is going to wlc in like two weeks. so ill be all by my lonesome for two weeks! i hope i get fucked before he leaves because that will be super shitty if i do not. i am still at work. i have had two redbulls today. i have to give a demo on monday to the big hoss with mason and he is tripping on it. apparently this is a big deal so once again i am completely oblivious to what is going on because here i am just sitting on my stupid blog writing about how many fucking redbulls i have consumed today. i work in a large complex with a lot of other businesses around (i know theres a real estate broker and a hair salon a few doors down) there are some crotchety old mean looking people that work here. it's unsettling. i used to be really great with old people. i would go with my mom to her job at the hospital because i couldnt stand staying home with my crazy dad anyways there were a lot of old patients there and i got along with pretty much all of them. there was one that was actually a psychologist (this may have been the root of my desire to become one) and he had me take a rorschach test and he analyzed my handwriting n all kinds of other things. there was another little old man i was cool with his name was john but he died. those were fun times believe it or not most teenagers would not go hang out with their mom at a hospital and call it fun but i guess i made the best of it because my boyfriend at the time would come hang out too. that is what i do i draw people towards me.
oh yeah i just remembered on friday i met one of the other guys we work with named brian and this guy i could not figure out if we was chill or not cus he looked pretty young had tattoos everywhere n shit so i figured maybe itd be someone i could banter with too bad i cracked on him and said something like "oh yea you probably watched eclipse too huh" and this blockhead was like yeah the parts with the vampires and werewolves were cool and i am just sitting there waiting for the haha but wait. no it never came and then he said he did not want to spoil the end for me too bad he did not realize i was being sardonic and will never see that stupid movie gee whiz fucking idiot.
maybe we weren't so human but if we cry we will rust. and i was a hand grenade that never stopped exploding. you were automatic and as hollow as the o in god. i am never gonna be the one for you i am never gonna save the world from you. they'll never be good to you or bad to you, they'll never be anything... anything at all
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