some might say that sunshine follows thunder go and tell it to the man who cannot shine

some might say that we should never ponder 
on our thoughts today cus they will sway over time 
some might say we will find a brighter day 
some might say we will find a brighter day 


i am a sleeze haha i was perfectly content with never cleaning this apartment over the next three weeks but i walked in today and was going to heat up an early dinner but no i could not because theres an ecosystem trying to move in so i freaked out took out a shit ton of trash, disassembled my stove, almost died from suffocating on 409 fumes and tackled the mound of clothes on my closet-bed. hello i am marilyn and i have a cleaning disorder. theres a bit more that needs tending but i managed to depress myself in the clothes department. i need to clean my rat too. i wonder if its even alive. probably. it is like me, will continue to exist no matter how much my surroundings are deteriorating. 
if you are ever in a non spectacular mood i suggest listening to oasis by the way liam g has a dopamine releasing voice i think. 


anybody that use to know me knows i use to advocate being perfectly comfortable with being alone cus everybody i knew was like incapable of sitting alone or something. i still stand by my belief. just do not do it for a prolonged amount of time. it is going to be a canned soup and sriracha kind of night. 

oh and happy birthday to tmg. im glad he got m&ms for his birthday. 




some might say they don't believe in heaven
go and tell it to the man who lives in hell
some might say you get what you've been given
if you don't get yours i won't get mine as well
some might say we will find a brighter day
some might say we will find a brighter day