i hope the strawberry cheese danish made you love me again for today.

so i just had a long insightful talk with mason about my shitty life and living arrangements and financial difficulties and how i was highly irresponsible when i returned from iraq (i know totally professional right?) anyways he didnt really tell me anything i did not already know. recently everybody is solidifying my already-thought thoughts. tomorrow is friday thank god. i got into a fight earlier so that was great. i am considering injecting myself with some aids because that would be totally fucking awesome. or maybe instead i will just take up smack. maybe this weekend i will score some blow and make B really fucking jealous because i will be bumping lines and she will not be because she is in fucking california starving. HAHAHA. apparently everybody forgot i am alive because my entire morning everybody was texting me and now i am so bored. could you idiots not have waited another hour or two? maybe i will go walk around my office. or maybe i will uninstall every program on this computer including windows.

my breakfast this morning came from subways. let me tell you, that was the best like five dollars i have ever spent. i have found love and it came in the form of a flatbread sandwich. '... how do i live without the ones i looovee'... i think i have successfully pissed off like three people today so congratulations to me i am the most annoying bitch alive. 

oh let me tell you about my stupid morning or premorning. i woke up at 316 am from a horrific nightmare no it was not about zombies or mafiosos or alien abduction no it was a very realistic scenario. it was basically all of my biggest fears realized. and dream esther freaked out and i started screaming all kinds of madness in my dream and then the other person was like 'hey fuck you get out of my life' and i was like WAIT NO NEVERMIND THIS CAN BE FIXED. and then i started crying uncontrollably in my dream well apparently in real life too because i woke up to mike shaking me like 'whats wrong?!' and then i could not sleep and i was so cold and GOD THAT WAS SO SHITTY. i am about to start fucking strangers on the stupid street for ambien. 

if anybody wants to come to arizona on like the 12th, you can stay in my apartment and i will supply you with free alcohol.