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i need to be focusing on working and wrapping this shit up today but i just had a clear thought, the first of the day anyways.


people become cold and bitter and nonchalant about life and everything when nobody cares anymore. when people no longer ask them how their day is going and take the time to fucking listen. it's a slow process that is sped up with the day to day mundane bullshit. the selfish people sucking the life out of each of us. after some time the heart cant take it anymore and you shut down. i have cancer? oh. well... we are all going to die anyways! my kidneys are failing? at least i got a good run out of them. I HAVE A TUMOR? WELL HAVE A GOOD MONDAY TOO SIR. we are so detached. because few people care so little. it is not enough to have a desire to live. it is not enough that others will miss you. we just want to hear that someone somewhere truly, earnestly cares. 


i know a girl. i love her muchly. she is gorgeous. she has more charisma in her right arm than entire countries have in one hundred years. she has gone through more in her lifetime than what you have gone through in every nightmare you have ever had. in a different lifetime, she could have done the unimaginable. she is the epitome of preternatural. i love this girl.

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