a transference of energy

sleep is the most amazing thing i will ever do in my life. if i added up every impressive moment of my life it would still not amount to the satisfaction of falling instantly asleep and being asleep and waking up from sleep. that last part is not always necessarily good. i fucking love sleeping.

i told myself at the beginning of this year i would read a minimum of four books not because i dont like to read but because i was surrounded by such big fucking idiots for the past year that maybe i had lost a lot of brain cells in korea and probably four books would be like my shower after a rape. but i have only read two and that makes me sad. i read bang bang by chelsea handler and that barely counts as a book more like a very long magazine with less pictures and i read the motorcycle diaries by che guevara that was a gift from jason. it came in a box with candy canes and a plastic dinosaur and some beets and some other stuff. it was basically the coolest gift box i have ever received in the mail. 
one time when i was in iraq my mom sent me a care package because she loves me like that. i loved getting her boxes because it's the best feeling remembering someone still misses you. and she always threw stuff she knew i liked in there. she knew i liked chili beans so she threw them in a box, along with some pens eyeliner and jerky and pictures and then it arrives a week later. right before the battle update brief was about to start i had just gone to get my box and i opened it before i was going to dip out and like before i even opened it i thought maybe it smelled bad like a raccoon died on it. so i still opened it and it smelled so fucking bad and the marine dude next to me was like whoa what the hell is that. i ran out of the room with this gross box and it took me about 3 minutes to realize she had put in a can of chili but the damn thing had busted open. son of a bitch. i ended up only keeping the photos because they were in a plastic baggy and the vultures took the jerky and shit.
i love my mom she is the ultimate best mom ever.


i am so lazy. i was supposed to go to walmart to waste money on some shit and i have not because duh i am lazy.  MIGHT AS WELL LIE DOWN IN A HOLE AND WAIT FOR EROSION TO BURY ME ALIVE.

jason drew me this because i was like draw me something and out of the kindness of his heart HE DID  i have been trying to figure out what it is for a while i think i see a flag and a rabbit and a window. i wish i owned a museum. 


its is 711 pm and no errands have been done maybe i will seduce myself to do it by enticing myself with a cigarette. i am so clever.