the story of how monday was broken.

morning filled with premonition of what would i do and then your eyes meet mine and i stop breathing and the free fall begins. i cant think. where the fuck did i place my thinking abilities. that's fine. you're magnificent at filling the gray. fall right into step like this was just yesterday and i have so much to say but none of it is even important. i try to hold on and encapsulate every. single. little. moment. and. extend every single little breath. mainly because i can't breathe. 

like seeing a ghost for the first time. a long lost forgotten ghost. a brightly colored and radiant little ghost in a gray hall.

so i am leaving tomorrow and the army people said we can have this dog that i have been looking at, at the shelter. but since i am leaving tomorrow i wont have a chance to see this dog until this weekend. so i am pretty bummed. she's suppose to be sent to the rescue center cus nobody else wants her. but i could love her and she could love me and i could show her that life does not suck. life does not mean a cage and sometimes life can mean running around in fields and sometimes it can mean driving in my car really fast with no destinations and we will both be bad asses except i will be smoking and she will not because she is a dog. 

i want to save her and more than that, i want to change her name because no dog as beautiful as her should have to suffer the fate of living by the name of "missy". 

maybe we will be together. maybe not. if i have learned anything in this life it is that everything happens for a reason. and if somebody else takes her maybe she will be happier with them. but they better watch their fucking backs because i will cut a bitch for taking what i love.

and then i was going on a break and who should appear before my tired eyes but none other than my old pal from november. it was refreshing.

and i got no damned work done and now i am writing about how i got no work done so i am going to try to finish up studying and then go home to pack my shit. god. it never ends.