crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit.

ima do just what i want lookin ahead no turnin back
if i fall, if i die, know i lived it till the fullest
if i fall, if i die, know i lived and missed some bullets
im on the pursuit of happiness and i know everything that shine ain't always gona be gold
ill be fine once i get it, ill be good.

this song couldnt possibly be anymore awesome unless it was like my theme song every time i walked into a room. talk about an instant euphoria injection. and the video? fucking genius. why is kid cudi such a bamf. god. PROPHET MUCH?

 

so last night i had a pretty long ass talk. it happened when my mouth moved faster than my brain. i tried to stop it but by the time i processed what the fuck i had just did, he had already lowered the television volume. i just want to coast through everything. it was nice while it lasted, man. but you can't keep the people you want to keep. the people that make you feel good. the ones 'mad for life'. 

speaking of which. remember the days when my motto was 'you cant go wrong' and 'you cant be me'? yeah. neither do i. 

next year is a 'down year' which means if history tells me anything it means next year will be devastatingly crushing. given the increasing negativity, im liable to end up in a coma. id take a coma over another 2009. it might seem like i'm down but i'm not. i feel great. i wouldnt say i'm happy as fuck but i have a lot to look forward to and it can only get better from here. well, after next year- no way around that. karma debt to be settled there.

 

guh!