could be anything at this point.

so for the past few weeks maybe days i dont know i have been feeling super... emotional. so to say, that my emotions and the way i perceive things has been ultra heightened but not in a pleasant way but more in a really sad fucking way.
then again it may be the pills that i keep eating. they have about a thousand different side effects. one is that i zone out and tune out pretty easily. another one is that i feel very optimistic. about everything. it seems to increase my hope reservoir i guess. but then it also makes me feel depressions a lot harder. 


im watching this show called 'dead like me'. i totally recommend it. unfortunately. it's making me think far too much. and i don't much feel like thinking even at all. whatever.