im too high now id die from the fall.

my problem is that i dont know enough people who surprise me. i want something that is going to knock me off my feet and i know out of the like, four people who read this stupid blog at least one of them is going to think i mean i need some new pal that i want to fuck and for your information no. that is not the case. it seems like forever ago that my eyes would get wide from something someone says or does. probably that comes from age but i think it has more to do with the grade of your average human. either way it is annoying.
i just hit chapter 7 of 'on the road'. i am falling in love with the book and all of the characters. i love the idea of one day waking up and throwing caution to the wind and hitchhiking across the country with whatever you can carry with you. vagabond of sorts except id have no destination. i'd do it for the romance- somehow it charms me to just stop giving a shit about appearances and meet new strange people and learn their lives for a few minutes and move along. i was probably born the wrong gender and definitely the wrong generation. 
essentially, i could love the road- i do love the road but im not as intimate with it as id love to be.


while the rest of america was either asleep or shopping i had to go to stupid work. and it was even more boring than usual since the power was out a bit in the morning and then the internet died so that is actually how i managed to put a tiny dent in my borrowed book.


lately ive had the pleasure of associating with former military interrogators. i regret not going into that job during my army stint. they have wonderful stories and they performed a wonderful job that has wonderful skills.


i got my business cards for work today. i think that makes me a real grown up, too. 


guess im gonna go dip into the economy or something. maybe ill get into a crazy fight and end up on youtube but probably not.