i wanna rock your body (til the break of dawn)

thats beautiful. it's like poetry.

i really suck at writing lately well i actually write but i never post it. so like halloween weekend was pretty cool uh went to tucson bought some clothes and went to some old tucson movie studio where a bunch of slutty high school kids go to be cool. it beats the mall but they were there too. probably my favorite part was the drive there it was like super sharp turns and dips the entire way for like fifteen miles. awesome. anyways we watched dawn of the dead with olson and that wasn't too bad i still think 28 weeks later takes home the zombie cake.  

turns out my sister is going through her own version of hell lately which sucks extra cus i can't just walk over there and hug her or something. but she reads my blog so i hope she knows i want to hug her and shit.

i've been having the deepest conversations for like the past two days. like leave nothing out express emotions try to teleport that other person into the exact moment you are trying to vividly explain and they can almost feel it. this is the first time i've been able to do that in over a year i think. i'm not sure if i ever reached that kind of level before. i mean i've had 'deep' conversations n shit but there's no compassion on the opposite side. there's no 'oh, god! IVE BEEN THERE. IVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE. i KNOW.' it's the strangest most peculiar feeling in the world when you are able to connect to another human and even if its for a couple seconds or years you actually KNOW that person. you can see every layer and you are able to grow from them because of it. you take a piece of them with you because they allow you to and you are absolutely a fucking better person for it. i feel so sorry for the people who never get on a deeper level with people. i pity the ones who refuse to open up or think they don't have something interesting to offer.
i don't think it would be so easy for me right now to feel genuine happiness if it weren't for these talks. it's like a release and then i'm filled back up like a vase with information and experiences and laughter. fuck i dont know. what i do know is the next two weeks will be moderately gay but that's okay cus that's just life. plus, i have a rubiks cube that needs to be solved.

oh yeah and did anybody else see that fucking megan fox is in that love the way you lie music video? i am probably super late in this but what the fuck? how did that go about? was eminem like hey who's the most famous prettiest shitty actress? fox? okay... and you said she sucks at acting right? but every guy with a cock wants to fuck her? okaaay... let's get her on the line. i need her to play a retarded girlfriend in my music video.