like you care

my brain is in ultra reflective mode today. i think on most days my brain does not think for at least a couple seconds or minutes but today was not one of those day. i think i probably have been thinking several different thoughts because i am a multi-tasker. i woke up from bad dreams this morning. also people that tell you about their dreams are fucking boring. that shit is interesting to them only. that is except for my dreams that are about flesh eating viruses n shit. no last nights dream was not a virus. it was your typical 'i am a paranoid jealous bitch' kind of dream. i woke up all pissed off and shit. i do not know why i let things like this bother me. 
i had a load of ideas of things to write about but i thought i would remember it to write about it but no instead i forgot. 
you know what i want to do? i have wanted to start a fucking cult for years. i have recruited many willing participants but they are all gay and have not risen up. i do not know what kind of cult it would be or what it would be called or where we would locate. charlie manson used to be cool to me and i kind of like their theme. helter skelter? that shit even sounds cool and i mean, i love the beatles more than anyone else i personally know. there was a time in my life when i used to say shit like "what would charles manson do?" and "well, manson wasnt really THAT bad of a guy". i am digressing. either way i want to be bonnie. 
i truly have nothing interesting to say. i had to go buy another stupid phone charger because i left mine at work and was too lazy to drive back and get it. 
oh i think dan is inviting me to go drink at his apartment too bad i am so retarded tired right now i will probably sleep through the entire weekend. having a real job is exhausting!
it pleases me to know i have few friends. but those few friends are probably the greatest friends anybody on this world will ever dream to have 

this is what i do at work 

ich liebe Dich